Unrealistic expectations

My job has been pissing me off, I was disillusioned and so I’ve come here with unrealistic expectations. And now, after almost 6 weeks I’ve come to see the fulfillment of my expectations.

Firstline Security, my current employer told me some mistruths regarding my employment. I was told I could expect to make 2-3 times the money I have made since I’ve been here, and I was told I would have certain things paid for which haven’t been, i.e. rent, cell phone, etc.

I was really close to leaving this bullshit behind when I went camping to gather my thoughts. The trip did just that, I came out of it with such an amount of perspective that I am shocked at my previous behavior.

I am on vacation on the eastern coast gathering an understanding of the culture in the region. Most of my gas is paid for, the area is gorgeous and I have met some really interesting people, all the while making enough money to live and to begin paying off my student loans, my rent will be reimbursed to me at the end of my contract. I do of course, work a measly 4-5 hrs a day.

How I could be anything but ecstatic to be here, I don’t know, but I was. I was wreaking havoc at my office, complaining often, while ungrateful for the things my boss was doing to help my situation match my expectations.

I now recognize how my preconceived notions of what my summer job was supposed to be have ruined 5 weeks of my life. I now understand why nearly 50% of marriages fail. We grew up with the Brady Bunch and other ‘media dreams.’ Expectations were formed, we carry them with us, but when they are not met, we get pissed off. Though things may be great, if they do not match our expectations we will be disappointed, its this disappointment that ruined us.